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[03 Oct 2005|09:37pm] |
I've had a new journal for about a year now...maybe...I don't know how long it's been.
ADD THAT SHIT UP!!!!
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) xpositivelyrach
If I didn't add you yet, I'll see that you added me and add you back. Do it!
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[30 Jan 2005|11:54pm] |
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for those of you who haven't yet, add xpositivelyrach, because it is much easier for me to add you after you have added me. THANKS!!!
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[24 Aug 2004|08:14am] |
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Fuck it. I can't make this entire journal friends only. Add xpositivelyrach. I'm done using this.
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| p.s. |
[24 Aug 2004|07:03am] |
In other news, I've deleted a lot of you to prepare for when this journal becomes friends only. If you wish to remain, please make yourself known.
Also, if you live in the Erie area, and you're involved with a certain someone to an extreme amount, don't expect to hear from me for a very long time. Oh, you'll see me on the occassions I go to Erie (which won't be often after labor day), but don't expect me to talk to you or even say hi.
This also means I will no longer be posting on the board.
Things have to change, and since he's not willing to change the way he is, and I'm the one being made out to be the bad guy, I'll fucking step up.
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[24 Aug 2004|06:58am] |
so I just got an email saying that I'm getting $992 (student loan) in addition the $830 I'm already getting (student aid). This is all returned money mind you because I have the full ride so I always get this shit back...directly deposited! I'm thinking about not cancelling the loan because I owe my parents money still...and I could use the extra cash. Holy fucking shit. I'm getting roughly $1500 in a couple of days (I already bought a parking pass with part of the money). Holy shit holy shit holy shit!!!
I feel so rich!
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[21 Aug 2004|08:03am] |
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well...he promised. Let's see how long it takes for him to go back on his word.
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[01 Aug 2004|01:18pm] |
he said someone told him that I write about him in my journal (even though he has me as a friend on here).
he said it was a girl.
but he wouldnt tell me who cause he "doesn't sell out his friends".
so, whoever it was, please be mature and polite, and let me know that it was you so that I can promptly delete you from my list (if it's someone that I will feel the need to delete).
Also, if all you're going to do is talk shit on me, don't have me on your lj friends list. Thanks.
On another note:
happy birthday to my little brother. He turns 16 today!
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[31 Jul 2004|03:21pm] |
my black eyes are almost gone.
the wedding almost got rained out.
I did an OK job filming it.
seth's birthday is tomorrow.
I have 33 hours of work this week.
I paid my parents back $430 today (I got my refund from school finally, so I'm not in debt anymore...yet).
I leave in 2 weeks.
My birthday is in 1 week.
Maybe being 20 will make me start acting like an adult. I think I'm finally ready to grow up.
And I am definitely ready to get the fuck out of Erie.
and the fuck away from you.
<3
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| midday update |
[29 Jun 2004|05:37pm] |
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did I mention that my school is giving me $630? yea, see, cause I'm poor and the state decided I needed that much for the summer. HAHAHAHA YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!
my parents will be paid in full rather shortly AND I have a job.
I can't believe how happy I've been lately.
...damn skippy, life rules.
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[29 Jun 2004|11:33am] |
last night was amazingly fun
this week will probably also be amazingly fun (hopefully)
hanging out with josh buck was cool as fuck
but he makes me think too much hahaha<33
p.s. I dont have class tomorrow...who wants to hang??
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| a change is in order |
[28 Jun 2004|10:07am] |
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so I've decided I need a makeover. Not just on the outside, but on the inside as well.
from now on I'm going to dress how I want to, act how I want to, listen to what I want to, etc..and not give a fuck about what anyone thinks about it.
Don't get me wrong. I like the music I listen to, the clothes I wear, how I act (sometimes)...but I think I'm a little too old for this. It's time to grow up.
I've always liked really nice clothes. I don't feel like looking like a cliche hardcore kid anymore.
I love my piercings, but I'm saying bye bye to them for now (cept my ears)...I need to be more concerned with my future.
I love the music I listen to, I really do, but I don't think I should be restricted to just one style...I guess I never was. But I also don't have to LOOK like I listen to a certain genre. I don't think it matters that someone can look at you and say "oh she listens to hardcore/emo/punk/pop/country)...it's just retarded.
In conclusion:
dress how you want to dress, be who the fuck you want to be, and fuck what everyone else thinks...I've been making that mistake for far too long, and I'm done.
good bye rach, hello rach
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[27 Jun 2004|01:53pm] |
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I hate having amazingly realistic dreams.
I used to love it, but now I just hate it.
I hate having dreams that are so incredibly happy..then waking up and realizing it's not real. It's depressing.
I woke up and realized we weren't really kissing in real life. That you weren't really kissing my neck and telling me you loved me...and I cried.
what sucks is this...a majority of my dreams have come true. Not saying I'm psychic, but I'm saying I've had deja vu too many times because things that have happened in my dreams have happened in real life.
not saying that will happen...but it just makes me think is all.
I'd rather have a dreamless night.
I won't give up on you
You know that's what I'm sayin'
Tell me you know its true
Thank you for always stayin'
Please say your here
not far but near
When I'm away
Be back one day
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[26 Jun 2004|09:39pm] |
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everything changes
everything falls apart
can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses i know
that song definitely epitomizes how I've felt about myself for the past year. I mean, I know I've been losing my mind. I've been watching it happen, and haven't been doing a god damn thing about it. Until now I suppose. Things are starting to pick up. With the job, school, awesome hangouts, and REAL friends...I'm starting to feel a lot better. A lot more "in control"...and I'm glad.
here's to the future...fuck the past.
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| I FUCKING RULE!!! |
[24 Jun 2004|08:15pm] |
today has been the best day ever
first, I get a full refund without a receipt at target.
then, I bite into a chicken bone at taco bell (gross I know), and get a free combo meal coupon.
THEN, I get a fucking job!!!
HOLY FUCK, MY LIFE IS AWESOME.
fuck the haters
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[24 Jun 2004|07:43am] |
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the only bad part about living with ashley is this:
her mom and her mom's boyfriend spend about 1-2 hours in the bathroom every morning. Anyone who knows my sleeping habits knows that this is detrimental to my well-being. I get up every morning needing to pee, and they only have one bathroom. So, I stay awake and wait for them to come out so I can pee. Not only can I not fall back asleep because I need to use the bathroom, but also, by the time they're out of the bathroom, it's time for me to get ready for class anyways.
In conclusion, I only got 5 and a half hours of sleep as opposed to the 7 I would've got. HOORAH!
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[23 Jun 2004|07:14pm] |
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so the past few days have been pretty shitty/hectic
sunday- I won't even fucking talk about it. Fuck that day, and fuck you too.
monday-hung out with erin, and realized that adam had my fucking license. Go to pick it up and see something I never wanted to see and end up feeling really really sick because of it. Then, my fucking phone goes dead and won't charge.
tuesday-go to verizon to get my phone fixed, and they keep it for 3 hours, and it's still fucked up, so they keep it for another hour so they can transfer my phone book to a new phone (yea!)...then that one fucks up. I spend the rest of the night in class and then hang out with matt and matt.
today take pictures for my photography class, watch welcome to mooseport, play mini golf in edinboro, then watch bad(der) santa. After that, I go to a photo shop on liberty street to get my film developed for class tomorrow (I can't wait to see how they turn out), then go to tops to get some stuff for lunch/snack for the week to save some money. After that I'm driving down 38th street on my way to get something to eat, and see someone I never want to see again, and he ends up driving behind me, so I turn as fast as I can instead of going to subway like I wanted to...oh well...go figure.
tomorrow I'm going to edinboro to just see seventh star (for free!), hopefully this week gets better. I should stop at jcpenny on my way to get my pictures tomorrow so I can see if I have a job. That's a good plan.
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[22 Jun 2004|07:45am] |
I am so fucking mad right now.
my phone died last night because my fucking charger refuses to fucking work.
I have to go to verizon today because my car charger wouldnt work, either.
WHAT THE FUCK!?
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| attention all who care, and those who don't |
[17 Jun 2004|01:24pm] |
The real me has been absent for far too long, but don't worry, because my overly extended hiatus is over, and I am on my way back to being me. For all intensive purposes, the person who has been "rach" for the past year or so is just my evil clone. Bid her a fond adieu and she shall be on her way.
I know I've said it before...but damn it, I mean it this time.
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